Walls will fall before we do

Addison and I like to switch up “our song” every once in a while. Well, actually, we’ve only changed it once. Our first song was Jason Mraz’s “I’m Yours,” which I heard for the first time at a summer camp I worked at, not realizing it was a super popular song everywhere else. And when two coworkers started making out to it (at work nonetheless), we decided it was time for a change.

And thus, our song is “Stay with you” by the Goo Goo Dolls.

Not a normal pick, we know. But while most couples decide to get super gaga over each other with songs about how romantic and perfect life is, we find ourselves relating more to this song. We’ve been through a lot with long distance and other things that have come and gone in our lives. And wholeheartedly, we’ve had to rely on each other to really get through.

The first time I ever heard this song, Addison was driving us late at night and it had just rained. I don’t remember where we were going. It was only around town, and I was half asleep with my head up against the window watching what was left of raindrops fall. Addison started singing along to the radio softly, like he always does. It was this song. It’s stuck ever since.

Will we ever change our song again? Probably. But that’s how life is and so are relationships– always changing. I’m just glad I’ve found someone I can grow and change together with.

“Stay With You” by the Goo Goo Dolls

These streets
Turn me inside out
Everything shines
But leaves me empty still
And I’ll, burn this lonely house down
If you run with me
If you run with me

I’ll stay with you
The walls will fall before we do
Take my hand now
We’ll run forever
I can feel the storm inside you
I’ll stay with you

Fooled by my own desires
I twist my fate
Just to feel you
But you, turn me toward the light
And you’re one with me
Will you run with me?

I’ll stay with you
The walls will fall before we do
Take my hand now
We’ll run forever
I can feel the storm inside you
I’ll stay with you

Now come in from this storm
I taste you sweet and warm
Take what you need
Take what you need
From me

Wake up this world
Wake up tonight
And run with me
Run to me now

I’ll stay with you
The walls will fall before we do
Take my hand now
We’ll run forever
I can feel the storm inside you
I’ll stay with you

That “one moment”

Taylor Swift just came on the radio with “Mine.” Now, I know everyone has their own tastes in music but bare with me for a moment. I actually really like this song, not just because I love Taylor Swift, but because I believe that every relationship has that one moment you always look back on when times are rough.

Sure, there are a million and one amazing moments in any given relationship, but don’t you find yourself sweetly reminiscing over a slightly faded memory from the beginning of your relationship?

For me, my Addison moment comes before we even started dating. We had become friends through work and mutual friends. One night, he randomly called me after we had been IMing while I was doing homework. He wanted to get ice cream.

It was around 10:30 at night, and being the prude freshmen I was, I was flabbergasted by the idea. My roommate who never got along with me completely encouraged me to get out of the room (probably because she just wanted to get rid of me, but I digress).

I mean, I had a boyfriend. Sure, not one I particularly liked and didn’t have the courage to break up with him (I had tried to before going to college and then later in October because of an issue).

But it was just ice cream. We were just friends. Why not?

So we went out for ice cream and picked up a pint of Ben & Jerry’s. I honestly don’t even remember the flavor. But he pulled out two spoons and suddenly all rosy with embarrassment like he still does today. One spoon happened to be one of those slotted spoons that are used to strain things… green beans. He was very embarrassed but I joked that I’ll take the “holy” spoon…holey…yeah…our whole relationship is based on bad puns.

We shared the ice cream in the gazebo on campus that’s near a creek and just talked. We talked about everything, laughed, and joked. It was probably one of the most carefree times I’ve ever had in my life.

Now Addison and I are busy all the time. We stress about school, work, money, long distance, family, everything. And of course, sometimes we bicker.

But it’s when I think back to that time where we just simply sat and shared ice cream, I know everything’s going to be okay. I know life is more than paying bills or worrying about work. It’s not even about feeling those butterflies or going out on fancy dates with fancy gifts. It’s about just being together. It’s about just simply being.

And I am more than ecstatic to just simply be with Addison.